stupid

today i was being stupid and in school i cutt HELP ME on to the top of my left hand. idk how i am supposed to hide it from my mom. but tomorrow im gunna talk to the school social worker and tell about me being suicidel (if i can make it till then). some people have reccomneded treatment centers, but idk if we can affored something like that. but i have to try cuz i cant live like this.....