hiddenaway1
Status: stable!!:):)
Mood:
Ok
Offline
- well i can now say i am free of self harm! And it feels amazing just to see my old scares all fading:). I encourage ppl who do self harm to do everything u can to stop as it does feel good to stop took me years to get to this place i can stop was...
- I cant deal with depression time and time got su thoughts and time and time really low:(. I did have a manic episode which was sooo amazing to me but now i have crashed back down to the low pooint. All i can do is act happy but deep down i feel like...
- Feel so empty and want things to just stop i hate feeling like this and no energy. keep thinking the only way out but i know its not a choice. wish it was a choice! hate it with no energy during the day i just feel so dead. wanna be like before i...
- Im scred im in soo much pain i think its from laxitives and diet pills:(. bleh can barly move. guess i got to live like it now.
- So think this is my first eating journal. This first time im gonna open up about my eating this is hard. I use to be anerexic when i was younger! i got out of it. now its all coming back but worse than ever. Each day all thats on my mind is food and...
- i just cant stop cutting its taking over me again. I cant deal with this pain no more. its soo soo hard i just wanna be at peace at the moment. Im shaking. what can i do thats easy just cut for release i need it i need the bloood!!! Im sorry people
- I dont know what tyo do. i just feel so so low and crying on and of. im hiding behind my smiles. Im scared one day im just gonna explode in a bad way. scared im just gonna lose is that much i end up doing my dream. but i dont know. Just wanna cut...
- i dnt know how to put it. i look at myself in the mirror see someone who struggling but putting that fake smile on and really struggling truthfully but no one sees it.
- Im scared im gonna lose my life if i carry on being like this each day. Thinking of death a hell of a lot. I dont know what to doo docs increased my meds now. Im useless im stupud why do i deserve this life. I dont. I cant carry on much longer. why...
- i am so so low.I just hate myself and life. I just cant carry on living the secret of my lif and hiding all my feelings bottling it all up till one day it all explodes in a bad way. im scared of that day to come. I just wanna be hAPPY AND STOP...
- Well i met this girl from finland. I met her in london saw her for two days now we cant stop texting eachother. We both like eachother but its the whole distance thing. I just wanna be with her each day we apart. im saving up to go to finland to see...
- Hmm lets think where do i start.......well last ngiht i turned to self harm in many ways not done 3 ways in one time but i deserved it all. I hit head on walll, took OD and then i self harm deepish. I should of went to a&e but i hate them places thy...
- sat here just wanna slice my arm just a little nip ok maybe more than a little nip. I feel fucked up im out of my mind wondering what can i do. I got no support so sat here ill anyways. now i wanna cut more. bleh alll the pics on my mind. blood...
- I dont know what to do no more. Im so depressed but i cant tell my parents thy got enough on there plate with my brother in hospital. i keep thinking its better of without me in this world. I just keep sinking bk into my hole and not coming out of...
- I cant do this no more. Its hurting me loads i want this to stop. dam anna controlling everything im eating. wish it could stop keep crying people noticing. My secret is finally out:(