Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
Hmm lets think where do i start.......
well last ngiht i turned to self harm in many ways not done 3 ways in one time but i deserved it all. I hit head on walll, took OD and then i self harm deepish. I should of went to a&e but i hate them places thy treat me like crap so i never went. I thought someone was gonna come threw my window and kill me. i thought awesome kill me i dont care. so sat there waiting for it to happen. I just wanted to be gone from this world which i hate. I wanted this guy to come with a knife and stab me sevral times blood squirting everywhere. just deserved to be dead.
Today i thought i was going crazy i just couldnt stop about self harm still in my mind. I would like to cut really deep again so its squirting out blood and the blood just pouring from my arms dripping onto the floor with me just sat there looking at it all.
I not been able to get up my normal time aT 9:30 I JUST BEEN SLEEPING LOADS just dont wanna get up to face another day feels scary facing another day depressed not wanting to live just wanting to fly far far away from this place and never come back. I keep argueing with parents. Thy keep saying they gonna kick me out im like why dont u then go on go on do it see if i care. I dont care living on the streets done it befopre for a little time was fun i found it interesting. Kinda strange but thats just me for ya.
I keep having these bad thoughts on my mind of wanting to kill someone and chop them up in pieces so im covered in there blood then shoot myself in the head. This is my normal thoughts i have each day day in day out. I just wanna curl up and be in my world for days without anyone finding me just wanna be on my own all the time. I go out occasanly to see some mates which is a laff. yes i laff and smile around them but deep down i just feel shit and wanted them to fuck of out my life:(.. I wanna just be left alone. grrrrr dam it maybe i shuld hit my head again. no one knows that i OD as i didint want anyone to know that night well now u know im sorry.
well last ngiht i turned to self harm in many ways not done 3 ways in one time but i deserved it all. I hit head on walll, took OD and then i self harm deepish. I should of went to a&e but i hate them places thy treat me like crap so i never went. I thought someone was gonna come threw my window and kill me. i thought awesome kill me i dont care. so sat there waiting for it to happen. I just wanted to be gone from this world which i hate. I wanted this guy to come with a knife and stab me sevral times blood squirting everywhere. just deserved to be dead.
Today i thought i was going crazy i just couldnt stop about self harm still in my mind. I would like to cut really deep again so its squirting out blood and the blood just pouring from my arms dripping onto the floor with me just sat there looking at it all.
I not been able to get up my normal time aT 9:30 I JUST BEEN SLEEPING LOADS just dont wanna get up to face another day feels scary facing another day depressed not wanting to live just wanting to fly far far away from this place and never come back. I keep argueing with parents. Thy keep saying they gonna kick me out im like why dont u then go on go on do it see if i care. I dont care living on the streets done it befopre for a little time was fun i found it interesting. Kinda strange but thats just me for ya.
I keep having these bad thoughts on my mind of wanting to kill someone and chop them up in pieces so im covered in there blood then shoot myself in the head. This is my normal thoughts i have each day day in day out. I just wanna curl up and be in my world for days without anyone finding me just wanna be on my own all the time. I go out occasanly to see some mates which is a laff. yes i laff and smile around them but deep down i just feel shit and wanted them to fuck of out my life:(.. I wanna just be left alone. grrrrr dam it maybe i shuld hit my head again. no one knows that i OD as i didint want anyone to know that night well now u know im sorry.
Is there any way you could talk to your parents or something without arguing? You need serious help, and they may be able to provide that for you if you bring it to their attention in the correct manner!
If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you ^_^
Thanks for the reply anuksut. hugs ya loads. xx