Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i am so so low.I just hate myself and life. I just cant carry on living the secret of my lif and hiding all my feelings bottling it all up till one day it all explodes in a bad way. im scared of that day to come. I just wanna be hAPPY AND STOP FAKING THE SMILING BEHIND MY MASK. I wanna cry but tears wont come out. Im totally scared. I hate everything about my life i dont see no future its blank. maybe best i slowly die. i just keep drinking each day. i cant stop i just wanna die slowly and painfully thats what i deserve surly.
can i just hide away fom this hurt. Can i stop crying. is it all my fault im like this, could i had stopped the abuse, could of i fighted back, did i know it was wrong?, should i have to see that person each day in my life to look at him knowing what he did to me, feeling the pain of it, should i just tell him to fuck of out this house or im just gonna kill him, could i really kiss someone? grrrrrr i just want all them questions to shut up. last night i took about 7 ibrofen. I felt light headed and sleepy felt great in some wierd way. i layed there for ages and ages thinking and telling myself off.
sorry about that. bleh
can i just hide away fom this hurt. Can i stop crying. is it all my fault im like this, could i had stopped the abuse, could of i fighted back, did i know it was wrong?, should i have to see that person each day in my life to look at him knowing what he did to me, feeling the pain of it, should i just tell him to fuck of out this house or im just gonna kill him, could i really kiss someone? grrrrrr i just want all them questions to shut up. last night i took about 7 ibrofen. I felt light headed and sleepy felt great in some wierd way. i layed there for ages and ages thinking and telling myself off.
sorry about that. bleh
There have been times I've called my life "going through the motions". No joy, no happiness, no sense of peace....
Lay off the booze and see a psychiatrist so you can gain some sense of control back into your life. You need not wear a mask. We accept and love the person behind the mask. Show us your face so we may touch it and bring you comfort. We are here for you. Let us know how you're doing. We care.