Major setback for me

I've been very very sick for 6 months now. I ended up going manic with severe psychosis back in April. I landed myself in jail in May for 2 months and then the state psychiatric hopsital for 2 months. I've been living at my Dad's house for the last 4 weeks or so.

I'm in bad shape. The depression has followed this manic phase. I can't believed how sick I've been. I can barely struggle through each day - ruminating too much over the past and gripped with fear over the future.