Awake

Alphonsus log: Stardate 1296.0 -- way too early. I'm trying out my emergency backup personality.  It's pretty much the same as the old one, except this one doesn't have all the emotional baggage attached.  It allows a complete state of denial, as all that other bad stuff happened to someone else and not to me.  Weird?  Yes.  I don't really care.  It's working for me. I have also stopped taking Klonopin and my Prozak.  Neither one causes physical dependency and it is glaringly obvious that they weren't accomplishing anything positive.  Yes, I'm doing it without my doctor's permission.  Oh well.  Too bad, so sad. However, as a result I am back to being awake at 5 am, which rather sucks.  I might have to start taking more matural sleep aids.  I've been tired all the time....I need all the natural sleep I can get. Love and peace,Alphonsus