TheED
Status: "Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs torments the torments of man"
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- Its coming closer to the end of my university course. Finishes on Friday. Though I still haven't eaten anything in over a week, this means that step to going to hospital is coming closer and closer. I am so scared of this. They are probably going to...
- I haven't been able to eat for a little while and blood test results showed I had high Bilirubin.. The GP said to go back and see her on Monday, and if I haven't eaten by then she is probably going to speak to the pediatrician or something, and...
- I don't believe I have always struggled with the thought that everything I do and whatever is perfect, but I know I definitely have been struggling with it a lot more. It happens in all sorts of ways, whether it to be to prove I have ability or...
- Today me and mum were out at the shops and somewhere in the car trip home we were talking and blah,blah,blah, she now knows that I have been seeing a psychologist, seen a psychiatrist, and on meds. Don't know how I feel about this. Though she was...
- I feel like I am such an embarrassment and am so absolutely hideous and disgraceful. How can I be eating so much, like literally would be having over 3000-4000 calories per day!!#@! It's not even logical, I'm gaining so much weight and hating myself...
- Merry Christmas everybody, I hope you are all coping with the holidays and Christmas time stressors. Remember there are always people out there to help you so reach out if you need to. Depression is hard, but continuing woth depression is harder....
- Is there any relationships between anorexia and BPD, or seem the same as stuff in 'recovery'? Just wandering because I have a feeling they were looking into that.. ? :/
- I'm feeling like the whole world is starting to close up on me. People seem more and more confusing, distant and unattached to my existence. It feels like my worth is diminishing smaller and smaller everyday until I will have no need to continue on...
- So I've started eating, like a lot more... Which is good I guess... but I just get this massive overwhelming bloatedness (seriously would be able to convince some people that I was pregnant) and it can be so painful or uncomfortable that I just give...
- I got really worried when my mum came in for the second time last night, she came in and was angry and said "What are you doing with all of the toilet paper. You're going through way too much. What are you doing with it all!?" I just froze, I...
- Our family is going away for the weekend to visit and stay with families related to us. I'm just so scared that I won't be able to 'use their bathroom' or might get caught. This side of the family isn't exactly over the top on helpfulness of mental...
- I don't know what to do, I can't stop myself anymore. Every time I eat or drink anything I just have to get it out of me. I've always got that stomach pain and occasionally chest exhaustion pain. It's just like a never ending roller coaster. I am so...
- This is to all,going through a hard time.Reaching for a glimpse of hope,to help with their climb.I know it may feel,that there is no use.So we try to numb the pain,with this thing called 'self-abuse'.This torture we make,to ourselves is not...
- Hi,I'm just curious to hear from any other Obsessive Compulsive Disorder sufferers and what they think or do because of it. It doesn't matter how normal, different, disgusting or embarrassing they are, I'm never one to judge, and I'm sure no one...
- Ok, I knew I was getting pretty bad again, but I didn't think I was falling this quickly. The past couple of days I've been purging multiple times a day, even the afternoon after surgery which I had to fast for, then as soon as I have eaten anything...