OMG Muffins, All I can say is I hear ya! I don't know how much sobriety you have or if your a regular poster here or not. I'm new, just joined today.
Breathing is the one thing I learned to do succesfully and do it all the time but it doesn't help in a situation like this, well maybe somewhat :).
I don't know what I'm fricken trying to say. All I want to say is that I've been there so many times. Yeh, it works for the short term and even maybe a week, or months but never in the long-term. Stick to your original plan as hard as that may be tonight.
Just waking up without the guilt is a gift in itself.
Like I said " I hear ya" loud and clear.

Here's a little deep breathing meditation for ya.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUDO... "

Sorry about that malfunction but its great.

I'm a recovering alcoholic, working the A.A. 12 steps. I could quit drinking when I was trying to quit by myself, but problems in life will always be there, & my solution was beer. I surrendered to A.A. & stay sober on a daily plan. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow will never come-I accept the things I cannot change. You are doing the right thing--talking to someone that has been there.

I think you need to be assertive and ask people not to drink around you or that you can't be around them. ((((hugs)))) be strong and go to meetings. get a sponsor.

I think we can all relate.
Unfortunately if you are an alcoholic there is no "one drink" -- ones too much, and a dozen isn't enough.
So better to accept alcoholism. Quit fighting to be a normal drinker, and just don't take that first one.
Easier said, I know.
For me I just think about today.
I will go to dinner with my family tonite. My husband will have a beer, or two. I can't, so I won't.
Tomorrow hopefully god gives me the peace of mind to say mo to that first drink again.

Maybe you should tell your boyfriend that you don't drink? And no matter what to please support you in this?