Well I wondered the same thing about an eating disorder I "nurtured" from my teens through 20s. Then wondered the same thing *again* about alcoholism.
But low and behold once I got into a program of recovery there was so much more of "me" and more importantly of a connection, of life, of my family, friends, etc. Now I can't even believe I waited this long to start living a life.

left behind??? well hopefully alcohol! nothing about early recovery is easy. but it's ur choice. life or death. that simple

I know... fear of the unknown is tough. All the crap in your life will be left behind if you commit yourself to getting sober.

For me, I didn't know how I would live without alcohol on a daily basis. It made me fearless but created more fear... calmed my nerves then caused panic attacks. I had to continually drink just to feel sane. It got progressively worse.

It will be the single best thing you could do for yourself. Anything is possible once we put the drink down. Enjoy your meeting and go with an open mind.

I remember I was emotionally immature and I had no coping skills whatsoever. Pleasure foods, narcotics, alcohol were all excuses so I wouldn't have to deal with my feelings.

But in recovery I faced my fears with the support of those who have been in my shoes and that was my key to happiness. Face my fears and stop punishing myself.

God Bless!

Well..........what I left behind was getting dead drunk at bars and not knowing how I got home; not being able to find my car after a night of drinking; seeing my phone book open in the morning and having no idea of who I had called to insult the night before; the constant shame for what I did the night before; the temper tantrums I threw and destroyed friendships because of; liviing in squalor; not being able to hold a job; the list goes on and on.

There are parts of us that should be left behind - the part of you that you find while sober, as you go forward, is definitely preferable to being drunk.

Hi omg, I'm not sure what you mean by "it's so much out of me. What will be left behind?" Could you elaborate on that?

Nobody likes recovery at first, it is scary and change, especially major change, is always uncomfortable. I'm not sure what sort of group you are going to but something helpful to bear in mind for 12 Step work is honesty, open-mindedness and willingness.

Work hard at it to get the best results and let us know how you get on.