you need professional help - please seek it out.

Try to find some kind of motivator to eat... mine is my hair. I could easily not eat but I "force" myself becasue at my lowest weight, my hair fell out and it looked horrible. Now, whenever I don't want to eat, I say, "do it for your hair". Sounds silly but it works enough that my hair is healthy again.. I still have a long way to go though.

when i was studying addictions in psychology, we learned about addiction hopping. sometimes, when a person gets off of one drug/behavioretc. they switch to another. it seems like that's what you've done. do get help. help can mean a 12 step program, support groups like this, or seeking counseling. there is no "one size fits all" to recovery. we all have different needs. we behave the way we do for different reasons. so if you try something and it doesn't work, stop. try something else, but don't give up. recovery is as individual as you are. god bless.-fallon

I stopped drinking and then stopped eating as well.
I live in a small town, and AA and OA are only one room apart. I walk from one group to the other. People sometimes make fun of me when they see me going to OA. Like a thin person shouldn't go there... but screw 'em OA welcomes me with open arms. The most open minded people I've ever met.

I know I have an addictive personality, I switch addictions. I went from food for comfort, to not eating, to throwing up, to not eating, to overeating but not throwing up, to trying to eat normally. Which might have intensified the drinking. And now that I'm working to stop drinking, I can't even stand the idea of food. Sorry, I'm so negative. Just in a bad place.

First of all, CONGRATULATIONS on giving up alcohol. That is a really huge deal and you should be very proud of yourself.

This post really hit home for me. I went through a similar situation recently. For other health reasons, I gave up alcohol completely and I can't begin to tell you how much better my life and mind are despite all of the physical pain that I've been experiencing.

When I initially gave up alcohol, I continued eating the same routine diet as before. And due to my injury, I went from working out 2 hours a day to ZERO.

So of course I was freaking out thinking that I would gain weight from not exercising. Not so much. I actually lost a lot of weight very quickly. I think some of it is due to muscle atrophy, which is not good.

With the support of my family and friends, I started increasing my calorie intake significantly just to maintain. And I'm still working on it. It's so nice to feel nourished and not have to stress about punishing myself in the gym every day.

In a strange way, this excrutiating injury has saved my life. With the horrendous routine that I was on, I couldn't imagine a future with a family or any priorities other than punishing myself. That being said, I can't wait for the injury to heal so I can start my new awesome life.

I guess I'm telling you this to help you get past the fear of change and to help you see that you don't have to suffer like this. My parents, grandparents and best friend have been very supportive. Tough love sometimes, but LOVE nonetheless.

Do you have family or friends that can help you? If I can help you or anyone else in any way, please let me know. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. :)

good thing u stopped drinking but u have to eat. u shud see a therapist or someone that can help u

Adding my two cents to the mix, I'd say professional help is very important, and professional help that is directed specifically at what you're going through. For instance, if you contact therapists (who have been very, very helpful to me), make sure they have expertise (not just experience) with ED's and addictions. If you don't feel like you have anyone you can confide in or who supports you, therapists and/or group therapy sessions are great. This website is a wonderful resource, but having people who are living and breathing and empathizing right in front of you is priceless.

i am afaid to gain weight too but i dont want to die