Krissanta
Status: Pictures say so much. Bring so much back to the front of the mind. DETAILS SUCK!
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- I found pictures from the night I was assaulted. I can't bring myself to destroy them, but I can't stop looking at them. I feel stuck and I don't know where to go.What would you do if you found a momento? A trigger? A reminder? The pictures hold...
- I don't know how often this happens to others, but right now I'm getting LOTS of sexual spam in my inbox. At first it was just dating sites. Ok, whatever. I'm married. I don't really need a dating site or instructions on how to date. Next came the,...
- I've had nightmares about the rape for a very long time, but this one really bothers me.I dreamed that my friend was the rapist. It was the same exact thing that actually happened, but it was some one I met in the last year and have gotten close to....
- I'm sorry, I feel very selfish because tonight I am thinking only of my suffering and not reading anyone else's posts or questions or fears. I'm sorry. It's just this anxiety. It feels like it has been vibrating inside me for days. I can't sleep...
- Can you feel IT coming? I feel like there is something physical sneaing up on me. I can feel IT coming. IT like a feeling of dread, a black shadow, a cloud of anxiety and all the painful, shameful memories coming to swallow me alive. I'm lying in...
- Today I saw my therapist. It had been a couple weeks since I attended therapy. Last session was really difficult and when it came time to go back, I had a huge anxiety attack. I mean, it was like I wasn't capable of being human. I cancelled...
- I can't do it. I just can't. I cannot leave the safe distance I have put between me and my rapist. I cannot drive 330 miles to be within touching distance of my rapist. Not for a funeral not for a wedding. I just can't do it and you can't make...
- I cut the other day, a lot.But I had my reasons. I was alone. No one would listen to me when I told them how bad I was doing. No one believed me when I said there was something deep dark inside me. Something bad that I could feel creeping under my...
- It's been so long since I have done any cutting. Now I have done a lot. More than I would have liked. I have therapy tomorrow and I am afraid she is going to throw me out. I can just hear her saying that I had been doing so well and being an adult...
- I feel like I am hurting so much. Like there is something black and evil under my skin. Like slut has set up a home inside my heart. Like my rapist just keeps coming back to me. I have fought for so long and I am just getting so tired. I feel like I...
- I feel like I am hurting so much. Like there is something black and evil under my skin. Like slut has set up a home inside my heart. Like my rapist just keeps coming back to me. I have fought for so long and I am just getting so tired. I feel like I...
- I've had lots of panic attacks before, but today I had the worst ever. I guess I just really want to talk to some one, anyone who goes through this and finds a way to the other side. Because as this feeling gets worse, it feels more difficult to get...
- Hey, is anybody using the Fentanyl patch? I am just wondering because this is my second try with it. I tried it a couple years ago and I really don't remember why I stopped using it. Anyway, my question is, the first time I filled the script, I got...
- I feel completely out of control and I just want to take my art knife and stab it into my leg and drag it until I see blood.I feel like my whole body wants it, like my skin is screaming for it. I feel like bursting and the frustration is driving me...
- I have very vivid nightmares and I take medications to help. But as the anniversary of my rape comes closer, the more the nightmares come. I just don't know what to do with them. I try to tell my husband about them, but he seems to think that they...