Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I feel like I am hurting so much. Like there is something black and evil under my skin. Like slut has set up a home inside my heart. Like my rapist just keeps coming back to me. I have fought for so long and I am just getting so tired. I feel like I am losing my battle. I have not cut in so long but now my left arm is just a mess.
Mostly I think I want to die, That there are so many good reasons for this but I just can't do it. I am afraid of what is on the other side or what happens when I am not successful. That has happened before and cutting brings me pain and blood but not death.
But it also brings me shame. I am so afraid people will see it and judge me. I'm just hurting so much and the people that know keep telling me what a good, smart and caring person I am. That they have never seen a dark part of me EVER. That it is the fault of the person who raped me an not mine. But I feel it growing inside me. I feel it wiggle under my skin like I just want to drag my nails deep into my and rip it out.
what am I supposed to when no one sees it and I just want to cut or worse. I can't think anymore.
Mostly I think I want to die, That there are so many good reasons for this but I just can't do it. I am afraid of what is on the other side or what happens when I am not successful. That has happened before and cutting brings me pain and blood but not death.
But it also brings me shame. I am so afraid people will see it and judge me. I'm just hurting so much and the people that know keep telling me what a good, smart and caring person I am. That they have never seen a dark part of me EVER. That it is the fault of the person who raped me an not mine. But I feel it growing inside me. I feel it wiggle under my skin like I just want to drag my nails deep into my and rip it out.
what am I supposed to when no one sees it and I just want to cut or worse. I can't think anymore.
I know it must be hard that people keep telling you how perfect you are when you really want someone to notice the pain you are going through but at the same time you don't want anyone to see it.
It's hard but you need to find someone to talk to. Family would be best: someone who loves you.