i'm so sorry that you had that dream....sounds very scary.....i've actually had the same thing happen to me.....male relatives that i trust have been rapists in my dreams.....it's gotten to the point where i'm very uncomfortable around some of them.....i wasn't there so i'm not sure how you got your phone.....i think after we've been raped and we start making friends and they become someone we trust, we almost feel like the victim again.....i know that this is true for me...when i was raped the first time, it was by someone that i thought was a friend...i thought i could trust him.....if the same happened to you maybe you dreamt about your friend b/c you think that you can trust him and your rapist broke your trust.....it's really uncomfrotable and scary, but i do everything i can to keep myself safe before i go to bed....i think happy thoughts, sometimes i sleep with a stuffed animal, i sleep with a whistle next to me on my bed, i make sure my doors are locked....i just keep myself safe.....it doesn't ALWAYS make the nightmares go away, but it helps me feel a little better.....things'll get better...i hope this helped....if you wanna talk, i'm here

Yes, I was assaulted by a friend. We weren't best friends, but we did know each other. Spent time together. Then after the assault, my best friend called me a liar despite the easy to see evidence. He hurt my hands. I had a cast on one. But I'm a liar. It was like being assaulted again to lose my best friend in that way.

After he called me a liar and refused to listen to me when I tried to speak of the assault, I was forced to tell my mother by my psychologist and rejected by her. It just felt like they were attacking me, my very being. I lost hope and became despondent, then suicidal. At night I would cut at my wrists while listening to my best friend chatter away on the phone like nothing was wrong. When I told him I felt suicidal, he told me if I did it, he would follow right behind. He was in tears or at least it sounded like he was, but he still didn't believe me. His reaction went to my core. It killed me.

After that night, he would check my wrists every morning. He would see the cuts and say, how can you do this to me? Really?! To YOU?! The next morning (well, late at night) I took a bunch of pills with gin. When I didn't show up for school, he called the police.

I guess my point of all this is it feels like I've been assaulted over and over. I've also had this dream before. Like you, it's been people in my life. Some night the person changes and it's everyone who has ever hurt me. Some nights it's friends. I HATE it. I already feel like I can't have friends. These dreams make me fear people. Just everyone. Sometimes I can't leave my house. There are too many people out there.

I try to protect myself before I go to bed. I read. I leave the tv on all night. I listen to music. I'm listening right now. I sleep with something comforting. I take anxiety meds and sometimes sleeping pills. It just doesn't always help. I've decided to cut myself off from Facebook because it just kills me so often. It has actually recommended my r*pist as a friend several times and my abusive ex boyfriend just as often. To see them, out there living normal lives, just seeing that kills me. I constantly suffer and they just live. So not fair.

I feel like cutting so bad, but I can't. I won't. That is a bad coping mechanism.

i understand how you feel....a lot of the time i feel the same way.....i mean, my rapist's first named started with an m and whenever i hear that name i freak, b/c i think that whoever is talking is talking about HIM......i'm afraid to see my family sometimes, but it;ll be okay......sometimes i feel like i;ve been raped a lot, too....like i've been sexually harassed a lot and i feel like that was a rape, too.....things'll get better.....it's takes time, but it does