johnbaxter

I haven't posted a journal entry, or been on the forum for a while. I've been dealing with taxes, I wrecked my car (no injuries), I'm still dealing with my daughter's affairs (oops, that didn't come...

My daughter Libra passed away 3 months ago on Nov. 27, 2007. What is amazing to me is that when she came home from the hospital under Hospice care, until she passed away, was 3 months. I think about...

Yesterday my granddaughter and I went to visit Libra's grave and leave flowers and balloons for Valentines day. It was a good day. Jessina and I were pleased with how we decorated the grave. I went...

I've been missing my daughter tonight. She was so good at giving advice and listening to me. The first time I saw my daughter, she was sleeping. I went to a bookstore and bought her a children's book...

I spent time tonight making a list of my friends, their loved one(s), the date they passed, and details from their profile. I also listed my friends real name next to their screen name, if it was...

I spent yesterday moving my daughter's apartment. My house looks like a storage bin, but eventually I'll eliminate some of the stuff. I'm happy that the move is over and I don't have to go back to...

Insignificance, pettiness, and irrelevance. These are the things that I have become aware of. Things I used to think were important, are now insignificant. Things that I was sensitive to, are now...

I live in two worlds. One is a world of distraction. It consists of reading, watching TV or movies, working on my computer, transposing music, everyday life that requires my attention and focus. The...

I'm beginning to think about my mother and brother (thanks PDdaughter for reminding me there are others in my life that need my support). My mother lives in an apartment in Texas, and has daily...

Today was a difficult day. I went to see my daughter. Her mother went with me. She didn't spend much time at the grave and didn't say any thing to my daughter. I asked her if she wanted time alone or...

My daughter Libra was a pack rat. I have boxes stacked along one side of my garage to prove it. She would take a long time to get ready to go somewhere, and was usually late. When we traveled to...

I went to visit my daughter this morning. I usually feel better after visiting her, but today, not so much. It's embarrassing to admit that I haven't cried since she passed away. All I feel is numb...

I went to see my daughter yesterday before the rains started up again. Wow, the cemetary got hammered! I live in Northern Calif., and the storm broke branches off trees and made quite a mess. My...

Well, my last journal entry reminds me of the Mark Twain quote, "If I had more time, I would have written a shorter letter". Actually, I have nothing but time, but haven't been able to take care of...

I've talked about being my daughter's caretaker, but not about the extent of her care. I keep going back to the beginning, when she was first diagnosed, and the events of the timeline leading up to...