will i be okay?

i am no better off then I was months ago. I'm still in custody battle over my two beloved kids with their father. Super depressed still on that subject. I am currently out of work i'm due to have a baby very soon. My boyfriend is still a controlling dick that i cant even get any comfort ar affection from. On the plus side I finally am no longer homeless. I got an apartment with douche bag boyfriend. Although he acts as though its his even though we have done the majority 50/50. Honestly i have put in a little more. I havent seen my counselor in month or so. missed last apointment due to no gas in my car. I wish i was more mentally stable. I'm about to bring in baby number three to this world and i just feel i'm not ready. I need to be but im not. My due date was monday. If i make it to tuesday im getting induced. Im so scared of labor. i know its a bitch. I pray everything goes good and baby and i will be okay.