baywatchkelly

Great message at church.  What yoke do you put on every day?  I took that at thought, gee, do I wake up grumpy, tired, angry, frustrated, etc.  It could be a whole host of negative thoughts....

I am on my own this weekend.  My husband is out of town for a few days.  I had a good week despite the nutty hot temps.  Monday it was 113 in down town L.A.!  I work about 10 miles from downtown....

I am choosing to trust my Lord.  I am choosing to not let myself be defined by the MS.  I am choosing to believe in healing, I choose to remain positive, and I refuse to give up.  God has great...

My last journal was private, however lets jus say I was horrible and whiney.  Life was hard that day.  And thank God that every day is a little different.  Truly, most people, given a day in my...

Back to work.  I am not sure about this year.  I committed to full time.  I am pretty sure this will be my last year full time.  In fact if by December I am still struggling I may reduce my hours...

Yet another challenging day, but aren't they all.  What I would give to be free of this disease.  It is so hard and I feel so trapped by my body.  I do things anyway.  I refuse to give up.  I...

I took a vacation with my husband. We went to Lake Chelan in WA. It was super hot. For the most part I did ok. I did get frustrated and overheated a couple of times. What is frustrating is not...

So, I realized that there was a reason for me being extra emotional.  I had PMS.  I haven't had it like that in years.  I am in my mid-forties.  Not to diminish how hard MS is.  And it was that...

Suns out.  PMS passed?  Life is ok today.  I am even a bit joyful?  Thanks God.

I just don't get why it has been so hard lately.   My symptoms have been flaring up more than usual the past month.  The past week I have improved a bit.  I am just so tired.  I actually hate...

Today I am not so angry.  But for the past few weeks I have felt very angry.  Angry at this disease.  I have been super tired and every little thing has been hard.  Yesterday I think I over did...

I hate change.  Does any one really like change.  I like to know what is going to happen, when I am having dinner, etc..  I know change is constant.  The changes in my life prior to this...

Some times it is so hard to stay positive.  Especially when you are so tired and you slept terrible.  I try so hard to embrace where I am today and not live in the past.  Most days I do a great...

Today is a tough day.  I am tired and the side affects of the avonex stink.  Some days I don't feel poopey after the drug.  Today I do.  Generally I have been tired anyway.    I find it so hard...

Well, I have had a pretty good year.  My good year is not so good to the average person, however, when you suffer with this disease, good is relative.  And I have been positive for the most part....