Will it get easier?
Some times it is so hard to stay positive. Especially when you are so tired and you slept terrible. I try so hard to embrace where I am today and not live in the past. Most days I do a great job. Then, every now and then, I get incredibly sad. I sang with my husband at Church on the Beach this weekend. I used to be an Ocean Lifeguard. It was weird to sit on the beach and watch the water and know that I can no longer do what I did for 20 years. The smells, the memories, the sense of accomplishment and pride I used to feel. I was sad yesterday. I miss being able to run or walk with out worrying I will fall. I miss being sore from working out. The only time I am pain is because of MS. I hate feeling like a prisoner in my body. I miss being able to do things and not get overtired. Today I am sad.