SeekingStrength19

I'm not sure what I would trade ... but it would be something of significant value.  People always say, "I'd give my left arm for ..."  Would they?  Would they really give their arm for a seat at...

I'm tired.  I haven't been sleeping and last night was no different.  That said, when I did wake up (well before dawn) this morning I had a thought ... and that was it's my choice to stay in pain...

Went to yoga last night.  It was supposed to help me sleep.  Nope.  It's 4:45 and I've been awake for the past hour.  I got a little over 3 hours sleep.  Today's a busy day at work.  Big...

I hate PTSD.  I hate Having PTSD. I hate myself for having PTSD.  

I just read what I wrote last night ... and it remains true.  I'm feeling better today, which is a blessing, but I'm still not great.  What I wrote last night is about a fear of losing control, of...

This has been a difficult weekend. Really struggled with a lot.  I have pulled back from everything and everyone.  I know I'm doing it, it's purposeful.  I want to ask for help but I don't know...

There are toxic people in my life.  I need to identify how to establish boundaries and push back against them.  How do I get rid of these people ... or better question ... how do I stand up for...

I've got goals and I'm not going to let anything stand in my of achieving them. This past weekend I heard the story of several triatalon participants and the underlying theme from all of their paths...

So I just got off the phone with my mother.  It was a "typical" conversation ... she calls, she talks, I listen.  When she called I was sitting at my sister's piano (I'm house/dog sitting) and was...

I've been in such a weird space the last couple of weeks.  I'm really trying to be positive but it seems so difficult.  It's past Midnight ... so technically it's Sunday.  Only today and then it's...

Fear. It came up in therapy today. I had been talking about a friend of mine and how she plans out entire conversations ahead of time, even thinking about alternate endings and responses she may...

My last journal entry was pathetic.  True, but pathetic.  I'm trying to change my attitude and am finding some success.  I said I was "waiting for nothing" in my last entry ... I'm changing that...

I need to try harder ... I need to focus.   I'm not completely unfocused, or unable to focus, like when I was experiencing all the drama associated with the PTSD and EMDR treatments.  That was...

Spent the weekend with my family. Not easy. Not easy at all. I'm too tired to write out all of the details but there are many. If only I had a weekend to rest and recover from my weekend. I don't...

I read this recently and couldn't agree with it more!  Thought I'd post it to my journal, to share. "When discipline is imposed from the outside, it may be problematic.  But when it comes from the...