SeekingStrength19

I'm stressed.  Last Tuesday I went to the podiatrist because my foot had been bothering me.  Although I'm a fat blob of goo ... I maintain an active lifestyle and my feet are important to me.  I...

It's weird.  I feel like I've been finding my way in the dark.  Figuratively speaking, feeling my way, with my hands, feet and by bumping into things with my head and body.  Tactile.  Slow. ...

Went to bed last night around 10pm.  Woke up just before midnight from a horrible, horrible nightmare.  I normally don't get scared or feel fear ... but last night was different.  I got a full...

It's been an interesting weekend ... actually it's been an interesting couple of weeks.  I don't feel numb anymore, which is good, but I also don't seem to get angry at all anymore.  I just accept...

For so long I wanted to be left alone.  To be alone.  To keep others away from my pain ... my suffering ... from me.  Now as I turn a page in whatever script my life seems to be following ... I...

  "We should think, 'If I live, I will benefit beings. If I die, I will benefit beings. I will benefit beings as the basis, as the path, and as the result.' There is simply no other intention than...

Today was a challenging day.  I guess these are bound to pop up from time to time so I'm just taking it in stride.  I know I'm getting better, since a day like this would have sunk me a few months...

  Things are okay.  Life is going on ... day by day ... just like it always does.  I'm not depressed or having flashbacks or anything bad ... but I'm also not really enjoying life either.  This...

Finally... Christmas vacation has begun.  Too funny ... what did I just do?  I signed on to my work computer to check my sales and read email.  I guess it's just my routine and, no surprise, my...

One more day until my Christmas vacation starts.  Then I'm off until Jan. 4th.   Thank God ... I really need a break.

I just had the thought ... what are "baby steps?"  As adults we say that when people are making slow progress toward a goal ... but what are baby steps, in relation to a baby?  They're life...

Today is a better day, so far anyway.  I got 5 hours of sleep last night ... so I feel rested and refreshed.

I was able to sleep last night.  Feeling somewhat better, more optomistic, today ... but wary that it will all come crashing down.  Going to just get on with my day and try not to over focus on...

No sleep for almost two days now.  The exhaustion is really starting to impact my thoughts and mood.  I've been drinking coffee all morning but it's not helping.  Got to get out the door soon to a...

The holidays are like zombie arms reaching out of the ground pulling me back into my past.  I'm trying to stay in front of it ... trying to stay positive .... but it seems that my brain has...