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The holidays are almost here.  I can tell by the creeping guilt I feel climbing into my reality.  I love my family but I don't want to spend time with them.  That makes me feel guilty.  Then ......

Normal is new.  My life used to be so trauma filled.  It isn't any longer.  So, I guess I'm getting used to a new normal.  Oddly, it's not as easy as I would have thought.  Old habits - even...

I was just responding to a post on the "sexual abuse" board and I wrote the words you've got to "feel to heal."  It's so true.  What I'd been running from for so long (feeling) was what I needed...

Well... my time off has ended but the relaxation continues.  Ahhhh.... I'm back at work today, after a wonderful spa weekend away with friends, plus an additional two days off.  Monday I had yoga...

I took a few days off from work to spend some planned time with friends.  It's been nice.  I find myself very relaxed and calm.  Such a welcome and warm feeling.  I'm so happy to finally be in a...

Hi to all of my DS friends!   Just a quick note to say hello and let you know I'm thinking of you all.  I'm sending positive energy, thoughts and happy vibes your way!  :-)   I haven't been on...

I SLEPT last night... I slept w/o dreams!  I woke up around 3am, but only to use the bathroom and was able to fall right back to sleep!  Aaahhhhh...... Rest is a GOOD THING!

I'm not sure what I would trade ... but it would be something of significant value.  People always say, "I'd give my left arm for ..."  Would they?  Would they really give their arm for a seat at...

I'm tired.  I haven't been sleeping and last night was no different.  That said, when I did wake up (well before dawn) this morning I had a thought ... and that was it's my choice to stay in pain...

Went to yoga last night.  It was supposed to help me sleep.  Nope.  It's 4:45 and I've been awake for the past hour.  I got a little over 3 hours sleep.  Today's a busy day at work.  Big...

I hate PTSD.  I hate Having PTSD. I hate myself for having PTSD.  

I just read what I wrote last night ... and it remains true.  I'm feeling better today, which is a blessing, but I'm still not great.  What I wrote last night is about a fear of losing control, of...

This has been a difficult weekend. Really struggled with a lot.  I have pulled back from everything and everyone.  I know I'm doing it, it's purposeful.  I want to ask for help but I don't know...

There are toxic people in my life.  I need to identify how to establish boundaries and push back against them.  How do I get rid of these people ... or better question ... how do I stand up for...

I've got goals and I'm not going to let anything stand in my of achieving them. This past weekend I heard the story of several triatalon participants and the underlying theme from all of their paths...