Updates

Well, it's been some time since I've written anything in my journal.  Thought it a good time to update.  I'm doing okay but I still have my bad days and each birthday, anniversary, etc. seems to set me back again.  Our wedding anniversary is coming up at the end of the month and I'm already anxious about facing the day.  I miss Gene every minute of every day, there's no running away from it.  It has gotten easier but everytime something goes wrong at the house I just seem to fall apart.  He was always there for me and held me up when I couldn't stand on my own.
My mother has been living with me for about the last eight months and I'm happy to say we've gotten her into an assisted living facility up near where my sister lives.  It really hasn't sunk in yet, but I'm sure it will once we start moving her out.  O how I miss my own space and solitude when I need it. 
I'm going to start cleaning out the house once she's gone, room by room, and getting rid of what I don't need or want anymore.  I've collected so much over the last 22 years and it's starting to feel like it's holding me back from moving forward. 
Still hating my job.  I'm so bored most of the time and still am only working 6 hours a day.  I hope things pick up soon or else I could be out of a job and then I'd be in real trouble.