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- I've come to the realization that I can't and never will be normal. I don't really care about being popular or having good grades. I just want to be able to function like a normal human being. I'm at this amazing program for the semester and even...
- I wanted to put off moving my razors into my wallet to one more day and this just so happens to be the day that my mother goes rooting through all of my stuff and throws out all my razors. She didn't get mad at me. It was a short and quick...
- I fail at everything. I even fail at having an eating disorder. I'm 15 now and I've had an eating disorder since I was 13. Very soon I'll have had an eating disorder for three long years. Since it started I've gained weight. I'm not going to say how...
- The past three weeks have just been total hell for me. I have been depressed for the past two years, but during spring break I was on vacation both weeks with my best friend and only one family member so for the first time in a very long time, I was...
- Has anyone else heard of this? I'm on tumblr and when you search depressing things you might come across a picture explaining the Semicolon Project. Basically, on April 16th anyone who is depressed, has anxiety, self-harms or is suicidal will draw a...
- I'm in a really, really bad place at the moment. I'm always my worst at nights, but this week has gotten progressively worse and worse. I didn't used to think about killing myself, but everything has just escalated in the past month to drastic...
- I feel like I'm drowning and I'm walking around and I can see everyone breathing. They're all going on with their lives like I'm not dying at the hands of a monster called depression. I look for scars on people's arms because I'm so desperate to...
- I hate my eating disorder and I hate what it does to me. I hate the constant thoughts about food. I hate the bingeing and the starving... but I feel safe. I've really been trying to eat healthy with three meals and some snacks, but I've been getting...
- Do they ever go away? Do they ever fade? Will my skin ever go back to normal? People never used to notice because I didn't have many of them, but my school adviser noticed one of them that I explained away and today I was at rehearsal with a guy I...
- I'm 15 and I've had insomnia for at least two years. Once I'm asleep, I'm like a rock, but it's the falling asleep I have problems with. I'm usually in bed by 9:30, but I'm tossing and turning not doing anything besides being in bed until about...
- I've had eating problems for the past two years and they, along with my depression have become something that feels ever present in my life. I can't imagine life without them and therefor I can never find a middle ground between the two extremes. I...
- When I was younger I thought I would never cut because I didn't understand what someone would get out of it besides scars. I still don't know what I get out of it, but I can't stop. It hurts when I do it, I cry when I see the blood and I feel guilty...
- I haven't been on here in a long time, but I don't know what to do anymore. My eating behaviors have become so erratic that every night I end up crying myself to sleep and my body physically shaking. I will starve for around two days, three if I'm...
- How does no one notice? I know my anorexia is a very secretive and hidden disorder, but I'm not very good at hiding it anyway. I just broke down crying in my bed partly due to exhaustion from my insomnia and partly due to the fact that it really hit...
- It's stupid, I know it is, but when I was younger I heard a boy joke that I was so fat no one would ever care about me. Ever since then I feel like I was inadequate compared to everyone else. My school uniform involves a very, very short skirt that...