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Ending it All

ItWhispersLies
ItWhispersLies
I'm in a really, really bad place at the moment. I'm always my worst at nights, but this week has gotten progressively worse and worse. I didn't used to think about killing myself, but everything has just escalated in the past month to drastic proportions. I have nothing to live for. My parents despise me. My only friend wants to die too. I'm constantly bullied. I'm not even sad anymore... I'm numb. I feel nothing. I feel nothing at all.
I cut my wrists tonight. Not enough to kill myself, not even close. I just cut them very lightly and it felt good. Now I feel like a wimp for not pressing harder, for nothing trying to go for it. I really want to try again. Slitting my wrists is a very real thought tonight and I know that even if I survive tonight it'll be worse tomorrow night. If putting it off just prolongs pain and makes it worse I don't see why I shouldn't kill myself now.
I really need help. I really want to die, but I don't want to want to die...
darkenedheart
darkenedheart
You are here posting so you want help and you don't want to die. You want the pain to end. I could say the usual go to your doctor, see your therapist, get your meds changed, ring a hotline. You know all that. Life can get better, don't you want to stick around and see what happens? Hugs.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You dont have to die. I was bullied a lot in school. Just think once school is over those losers can eat shit. Most of them wont ammount to anything, because they are mean people.

You on the other hand, are probably a good person. You can do amazing things, you just have to face that oppisition head on. Prolonging it does nothing. So face those bullies, and keep your head high. They are just projecting their own insecurities.

You should take that pain, and Im sure that anger..lol...and use it for something greater than yourself. Paint, write a book, or study extra hard so you dont have to see those assholes in college!

Life is a series of ups and downs, laughs and cries. But we make it though, we just have to keep pushing, keep a good head and be the best we can. You can too. Just give yourself more credit. When you get to be 18 you can get tattos and not hurt yourself, you are better than that.