CJAngel
Status: And down again.
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- She has schizoaffective disorder. I haven't talked to her in quite a while. It's funny how everything comes boiling out when you've been drinking. The last time I drank this much, I wanted to end my pain. I think I'll email my counselor and tell her...
- And my uncles told me that they've known for quite some time that I was Bisexual. They said, from a very young age, I just put off a specific vibe and they could see that I wasn't straight like I thought. It befuddles me. I didn't realize I was...
- It's time I start talking to my loved ones. I've been doing better lately. It's been a few months before I've slipped into a depressive funk. I want to talk to my friends, but how do I start? I'm not used to talking about my feelings. My counselor...
- I've been having issues for about four years now. I can't seem to keep weight on. For a period of time (roughly 3 months) I was eating next to nothing because eating made me feel physically sick. Luckily, my friends stepped in and got me eating...
- I've been having problems with my weight since I began college. There was a point in time where I wasn't eating for a matter of weeks because it physically made me sick. My friends all stepped in to help me out and I've since had a decent though not...
- I've been in Georgia for about 3 weeks now. Even knowing its just to visit, I'm homesick. I miss my girlfriend, my sister, my roommates and my friends. I'm excited for summer to be over so I can get back to school.
- He can't seem to take a hint. I told him I'm not interested in him, but he keeps popping in to sit and talk to me. I told him I'm happy in the relationship I'm in. Besides, he's old enough to be my dad. My parents know it's going on, but they don't...
- Decided to travel to my parents for the summer. Did it for Christmas and it threw me into a huge depression. But now that my parents know what I'm going through, it seems better. The Georgia weather is killing me, though. Miss my Michigan weather....
- People keep telling me that if I were a religious person, I wouldn't go through so much pain. How am I supposed to believe that an entity I can't even see will help me? I was raised in a Christian family. I've nothing against those who believe in...
- I haven't written since seventh grade. But I feel like if I start again, it might help my depression. The problem is finding my inspiration again. I haven't had the urge or imagination to write for quite some time...
- For the first time in 2 years today. We talked on facebook. When she asked me to call her, I lied to her. But its for my own sanity. My sister has schizoaffective disorder. And she doesn't like staying on her medication. I told her in 2 weeks, if...
- Had made plans with a friend from out of town to come over today and go shopping. I've been sick since Saturday and I wanted to get to the store to get something to help. But no. Another friend came over and was whining and complaining about how her...
- In 25 days, it will have been a year from my deployment. A year since I took that big leap into the armed forces. And in a matter of weeks, let my entire family down. I could have made a difference in my own life. Now I'm stuck back here. In school...
- Next year will be 5 years since I graduated high school. 4 years ago, I said I'd never go to the reunions. I didn't talk to the kids I graduated with. I spent 5 years quiet and reserved around them. I didn't let them see ME. Looking back now, I see...
- That she wished she had gotten to know me before I enlisted. Before I changed. Made me wish I hadn't enlisted. So she could know what I was like before. So I could still hide behind that lie. It's so hard trying to find myself now. I don't even know...