CJAngel
Status: And down again.
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- So much has changed. I'm nearing the end of my divorce. I thought she would be the one. But she just manipulated me into believing that she cared. She just wanted my money. And she got it. For 3 years, I did everything for this girl. She didn't...
- Life's been relatively good. My wife and I are doing better. She understands that we both fight different demons. I nearly lost my mom in 2016. Congestive heart failure and aiortic stenosis. She had a heart attack. And then a stroke on the operating...
- I'm falling back into depression. I don't know how to tell my wife, who's fighting it as well. My health insurance was denied. I can't see a counselor. My mind is just in a bad place and I'm scared. I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm losing...
- It's been a while. I don't even know who's still around. Lots of things change in a year. Last I posted, I had met an amazing girl. Shortly after, with grace from both our families, we got married. Quick, I know. But I felt a connection to this girl...
- She wants to take care of me. I work eight hours a day. She gives up the only open seat in the room so I can get off my feet. She got a job so we can save to move. My depression hasn't been triggered in weeks. I'm just so damn happy all the time. I...
- Four years since I got the news you were passing. Four years since mom called me while I was on my way home from class. My heart broke. I tried to be strong. I couldn't even make it back to my townhouse. My feet couldn't carry me. The crutches...
- You'll decide you want to be a part of my life again. You'll find out where I live; where I work. You'll probably ask KK. She always loved you. She thinks you still care.I feel like you'll show up at my work. Ask for me at the counter. Brad will...
- It can be years, months or even days. But it always creeps back. It doesn't help that I have no friends in this town. I go to work. I come home and sit in my house. Don't work today? Wake up and stay home. I can't explain it to my friends. "You're...
- And I keep lying to them. How do I tell them? How do I explain to them how I'm hurting? Why I'm hurting? In three days, they get to celebrate Christmas with their loved ones. They get to go to their respective parents houses and spend the holiday...
- That's all I got to spend with my family this Thanksgiving. But it was enough. It was more than enough.With my stepfathers diagnosis of lung cancer, I was lost. I felt no emotion. No anger, no sadness, no confusion. I was numb. My family is 711...
- I was doing good. I was doing GREAT. Finished college. Got a job. Looking at a second (better paying) job. Yesterday I got the call. "He's got lung cancer, CJ." my mom told me. First thing upon waking up. Dad's got lung cancer. I could lose my dad....
- Feel my depression kicking in. Gonna try and get some sleep. Hope I'll feel better in the morning. :|
- I finished college back in June. Moved in with a friend. I've even got a job now. Got it shortly after I moved in. Made some friends in town. I've certainly been dealing with my emotions better. I started to break there, at the end of college. The...
- I've been waiting so long for this day. In roughly 15 hours, I will be walking across a small stage and receiving my Associates degree of Applied Science in Web Development. I never thought this day would come. My parents are going to be there. My...
- I've been so stressed out about classes lately. I'm meeting with my instructor on Thursday to try and sort through some of this stuff. But my stress levels are still really high. What do you guys do to shake stress away? Maybe it's something that...