SearchingAndWaiting

I'm very lucky in life, from one perspective. I also feel very lonely. I wish someone would just listen.Why is that so hard to find? (Unless you pay for it :-(...)

I pray that I can be on solid footing soon.

After she tried calling and e-mailing me this week, and after a GREAT DEAL of thought, I sent her an e-mail in which I said only that I wasn't ready to communicate with her but that I would let her...

Sadness. She tried calling me Sunday night. She tried e-mailing me today. Her needs now, I'm guessing: To have connection; reassurance; understanding; compassion/care. My needs now: To protect...

I want to be heard.

She tried calling me tonight, but I didn't pick up. And I won't listen to her message until the end of this period of time (see my progress status— a 5% increase every day, more or less). Zero...

Please stop wanting something from me.Want nothing from me. I want to want nothing from you.I want to want only to offer.If you wanted only to offer to me, I would be drawn to you.---------She has...

I have feelings of loneliness; despair; insecurity; jealousy; and sadness. And I do not see myself as any of these things. I know the problems are in me. Other people may act in ways and do things...

I'm in pain. I'm not comfortable with her.But at least she was someone. A body (I dislike even saying that).A cute girl who thought (and probably still does think) the world of me... and was...

I thought of her today. But I didn't consider actually contacting her.I'm going in a good direction, I think.

Right now, living a couple of miles away, there's a girl who's open to having me come over any time and engage in sexual activity with her.A month and two days ago, I hadn't even met this girl. Now,...