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I'm scared that the reason I have been so depressed and haven't been enjoying college lately is that its not the right place for me.  I don't think I can handle 3 more years of undergrad, 6 yrs of...

things are falling apart.  Not just mentally but physically as well. I can't handle this.  I just want to be healthy and happy.  Why is that so impossible?

I slipped up and cut once but I know that everyone makes mistakes.

I am a mess.  I can't focus.  I have no motivation to do anything. I feel like my friends are deserting me and don't really understand or care to understand what I'm going through.  What I thought...

Ugh.  I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have hardly accomplished any homework at all in the past two weeks.  I just keep procrastinating until the last possible second and then half...

I just cut myself quite badly.  So much for going a year without cutting.  I guess one slip up isn't too bad. I have been having a really hard time lately. I have slipped into a deep, angry, fitful...

I think I just had some sort of psychotic break.  I really have no idea how to describe what just happened.  I felt legitimately crazy.  I never want that to happen again.  I am so scared of...

I have been so depressed lately.  I just want these horrible thoughts to stop.  I hate myself.  I feel bad for everyone who has to deal with me.

I still haven't cut!  It has been over 3 months.  I am so proud of myself.

I'm in really bad shape.  I don't know how this happened.  all of the sudden...deep depression.

I just got a job at Victoria's Secret for the summer!!!!

I miss my anorexia again.  Sometimes I wish I could just go back to that rather than depression.  It really wasn't any easier and I was definitely depressed while I was anorexic but at least it...

Vacations are so weird.  I have a lot of trouble realizing that they are real life.  I always feel like I put real life on hold and I'm just floating somewhere in a sort of alternate universe....

I don't know who I am anymore.  I am so confused.  Is this who I am without depression?  Or am I turning into someone new?  Am I a good person?  Do I like who I am? I really hope so.