Vacations are so weird. I have a lot of trouble realizing that they are real life. I always feel like I put real life on hold and I'm just floating somewhere in a sort of alternate universe. Then when the vacation is over it feels like the whole thing never happened...like it was all just a dream. I don't know if this is normal or not. Sometimes I worry about my grip on reality. Sometimes I feel like life in like flipping between photographs. Nothing really ever connects. Every time I switch locations or activities its like I'm in a new picture. Like I just exist in different settings that don't really have anything to do with each other. Its hard to explain. I guess viewing life this way helps me keep my depression in check. Its hard to worry about the future or about fast events if time doesn't feel linear. I sound crazy....
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