hopeless25
Status: Not feeling well
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- I'm getting lost in what's real and whats a dream. What's reality or is it all reality and it seems like a dream or is it all a dream and i live in my own fantasy.. I'm losing me and feel like my life is on auto pilot at times and i'm losin track...
- As the date comes closerMy heart begins to dropThe tears first shedSeems like they never stopped Taken by my handsA child that i bear3 months you grew3 months i knew you A child of rapeA child of incest4 yrs old And yet i wish i could hold Four...
- does anyone else have a hard time focusing or staying focused and motivated to do things ? I'm in college and i have the hardest time focusing and by the end of class i don't remember a things but i took notes ... and at night time its impossible...
- I can be ok all day but once night hits i can't fuscus :-/ I have hw that needs to get done but i have to get up extra early to do it cause i can't focus for long... Anyone else have problems focusing at night and ok in the day?
- Does anyone else kinda feed of the enviroment or people.. Like if everyone is happy then i'm effected even if i am have a bad day. Like today at practice my coach was angry and took ot out on us and i was pretty much attacked by players verbaly on...
- I feel like im a prisoner to my pastLock down by chains that I can't escapeWhat is the point of survivingIf your past is your fateEven if I was to grow wingsI would still be trapped by these chainsNever able to reach for the skyAs the chains dangle...
- I feel like this is the only place i can be freeThe only place i can truly be meTo take my mask off and let you guys seeThe many faces that lay beneath For so many years i had to hide and pretendMy mask soon became a perminate part of me And each...
- Pmdd is kicking my ass this month i've been so out of it and switchy and during this time takiah gets to torture me and i swear she's trying to kill me .. She love to come out at night and has the strongest feeling of hurt and pain. This morning i...
- I just want to be loved is that honestly to much to ask.. I hate that i need my friends more than they need me because they have other people who love them and i don't and that's not fair for me to put that on them .... I wish someone would tell me...
- So i'm starting to notice that when things are really stressful or my anxiety starts to go crazy i get a headache before i dissociate when i notice.. does this happen to anyone else or am i just weird ?
- I know this isn't incest but i feel more comfortable posting this here. Something triggered a flashback something that i totally have suppressed and from there everything came flowing back.. My younger brother always had has friends sleeping over...
- My family will never except me for me... They see who they want to see but who they see will never be me... I honestly don't know who i am...I look at my freshman pictures and i ask myself who is that girl and where has she gone. My life has been...
- i dont wanna do this stupid school work i dont wanna i dont wanna i dont wanna we have been sitting here for hours and got nothing done:( i want ice cream :) no more work for me :p hehe
- Ever since i came to terms with what i knew was always there and became aware and alleged the alters instead of ignoring. I've become much more aware when i disassociate and actually its happening a lot more now.. or maybe now i'm just realizing it...
- Disappointed in myself :( ... Takiah likes to party and is down for anything i mean i like to party too but i know how to say no to certain things.. Although i felt in control after a while i felt like i was just watching and not controlling my body...