FredrickShurmers
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- After complaining that I wasn't getting enough, work, I now have a good amount. Me not freaking out about not having the exact amount of money I want, is nice, however, I can sense that my alcoholism and the treatment of it, hasn't been as much of...
- I like to write and post on this board when not feeling so well. It helps, and the feedback has been very valuable. I am off today. I had intentions to do the right things and didn't rebel at them. I did the right things, for the most part,...
- How is everyone doing so far in this holiday season?
- I am having financial struggles and the fear is overwhelming. I just wanted to get out of myself and maybe talk to someone else about what is hard in their lives. Powerlessness in this area is making me want to drink. My mind two days ago...
- I know this, and I still am reluctant to not withold information from you or people who need it to possibly survive. If I am keeping the solution to alcoholism for myself, I usually am not caring enough about and 8th and 9th step agenda, that...
- I sabotaged myself this week, I saw gaps in my schedule and assumed they weren't there from God. I filled them, now seeing I needed to rest, and not try to fill them with work. I didn't know it would be the small things that are the most...
- In hindsight I am seeing I am coming off a rough patch in terms of what my life included in it's "to do" list. Recovery, multiple jobs, and school always seems to "steal" my time. The last couple of days, I had time to relax, and felt a huge...
- Someone in a meeting once said there are around 350 Americans, and 10 percent of them are alcoholics. He said of that 35 million Americans, 1% were in recovery. That had a huge impact on me of how privilaged I am to have a life that includes a...
- The second part of step one, is very important to me. The more I admit I alone, with no help from God and others, will not be able to manage my spirit, mental state, and physical after effects, the better off going forward I will be. I will...
- My self, a fear driven set of personality traits that think they know what is best "for me", is well and active today. I am churning a laundry list of complaints, silent tirades, and overall displeasure about what my goal is in life as a recovered...
- I don't think I do enough to deflate my ego. I know applying the steps daily is a way to not be self driven by an ego, but I think I do often say "I've got this" too much. Can anyone relate?
- How is everyone doing? Are you able to manage life well enough where you don't need to drink for some relief? I can say I am good in that area. It is not easy, and my mind can get in the way rather quickly, but ever since I have committed to...
- I didn't go to a meeting in the morning today. I was reluctant to read. I did talk to other alcoholics, worked with them, and went to a meeting at night. It was a good day, but right now I am kind of blah, maybe I am just tired and need to...
- I know most of you who are regulars on this site have heard my complaining about my financial situation and one of my jobs recently. Well I ended up getting opportunities to work for another company, and my first day was yesterday essentially. ...
- this morning I am doing a step 11. The big book says before I start my day I should ask God to divorce my thinking from self-pity, dishonesty, or self-seeking motives. I have done that. It says my thoughts will be assured if I do. A...