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had a very bad night, sleepless and just full of painful feelings, so much I thew up several time, feeling sick to my stomach. I just can t get over these intense feelings of "US", how she could have...

Went to the hearing today, went well, custody , finances, money property, division.I have 250 items to divide up but the judge went off her 32 items because she was so insistant. my items included...

Oct 1 tomorrow is another court hearing... It starts at 3pm, all my paper work is in order, I have 10 more minutes on the stand, then she is up 30 plus minutes on the stand questioned by my attorney....

well I am prepped for Oct 1 , another hearing, monday the stbx called the school for the first time since her attempt last nov 24th, weird  10 months now she has an interest?? (herself) and one week...

I sat around doing nothing, whatching the cats chase eachother, balled my eyes out all day. It was like it just started all over. could not eat or sleep...just cry cry cry and I am worn out on...

well with all the positives, I feel like shit. I am having to get the bank statements together and show where funds went . its all there , I just have to spend hrs and hrs doing this , when I should...

Well I printed out 160 pages of hell emails, the truth of what happend day by day through her ordeal,who  did what and when. I will give this to the attorney monday, organised and catalogedNow no...

Well could not sleep, with the idea that all have bought into that I am abusive, i wanted her dead, i was happy about everything that happened to her.....so I pulled up the emails to my brother in...

Well I am now getting calls from people that are telling me that the stbx is calling, harrassing and trying to mess things up. she got served my papaerwork for court. I had a huge mental cry today,...

I saw the paralegal today to sign my docs for the court hearing on weds next week. I recieved my stbx papers today and was stunned, hurt and angry. Firts she had the 25 year old write out ( its her...

went to the demestic class that I have to go to. boy alot of people are screwed up! Its a good class and I am getting alot out of it. I am now a week away from court hearing on the divorce. My sons...

Just exhausted, I feel so beat up and in limbo, days away from sept 12 divorce hearing and I am getting uneasy. I have never been to court this many times. Nights are my worst,I try to stay up so I...

I wrote this to the attorney last night, I am starting to think I am getting set up, by all these counslers getting buddy buddy, and my STBX ( fleur) leading the pack. Thursday, August 30, 2012Hi...

Well we met with the advisor, (she was sick so my sons meeting is thursday before the visit with his mother). It went well, she had met with my STBX first on a different day, met with me for 2 hrs...

is going to be a big week, tuesday is the courts interview with my son, she is coming to the house. I have been having the same nightmares of my stbx  suicide and very cruel confrontations. One of...