a big week
is going to be a big week, tuesday is the courts interview with my son, she is coming to the house. I have been having the same nightmares of my stbx suicide and very cruel confrontations. One of the biggest things I miss, is love. To feel like I matter to my other half, I know what I had at the end was not much at all, but I do miss love, caring,affection kisses, hugs. I am asking for too much too soon, but going through this roller coaster with out it . I do thank all of you guys for your support through out this, it has been very very helpful. Woke up down and just wanted to sleep in, but need to get my son off to school and me off to work. 17 days or so until I am in court for the divorce ,so this time will be loaded with stress and uneasiness.