sluggish and not motivated
well with all the positives, I feel like shit. I am having to get the bank statements together and show where funds went . its all there , I just have to spend hrs and hrs doing this , when I should be working. I have no new jobs ..so that stress is here and I just feel dis oriented, lost from time to time, like I am running out of gas. I have been working out and taking vites. Just... I keep think of her the way she was before. Yesturday was our 20 year anver of our first date. I fell for her big time and she to me, we were together all the time and 20 years later . well here I am . I do feel good on the most part, just feel like I am in limbo.
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You ARE in limbo. I\'m there too. Felt like crap for a few weeks, then all of a sudden I\'m too busy to even think about it.
Just do the paperwork in teeny tiny baby steps-a little at a time until it\'s done. That\'s what I\'m having to do-otherwise it\'s just insane.
Eventually I stopped thinking about the man I married-he doesn\'t exist anymore.
Hugs to you~
No doubt about it, this \"anniversary\" set you back a bit emotionally. It\'s fairly normal. And on top of all the other crap you are wading through, it was bound to bring you to a new low.
When I was going through my own 18 Months of Hell, my therapist told me that I needed to TREAT MYSELF as if I was recovering from a serious accident or illness -- to be GENTLE with myself and to allow myself to have a day now and then when I just didn\'t do much of anything. Stress takes its toll on the human body; you must give yourself permission to have some \"down time\" in every sense of the word.
Hopefully, you will re-energize in a day or two. Sending hugs across the miles.
Hang in there, it does get easier... I know that at the moment it feels impossible, but take it day by day and don\'t look too far ahead that\'s when it all seems so overwhelming. Hugs Lorie