TC40
Status: Extremely irritable
Mood:
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- I start a new job on Monday. I am terrified that I will fail. I cannot take another setback. I have been through too much crap in the past year and I need for something to be a success!!!!!!!
- I went to the hospital yesterday. I couldn't see straight, double vision and slurred speech.
- Good news first......I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!! It is full time, decent pay and in the field that I am interested in. I am Sooo relieved, and grateful....but I am having a hard time being "happy" or "excited". Not that I'm NOT, I am just SCARED TO...
- It is Sunday night. A new day and week lies close at hand. I wonder what it will hold and will I hold up? I know for sure that I will go to a job that I am realllly struggling with. I am grateful for the work don't get me wrong. But the work is SO...
- I am feeling very unstable. My mood keeps going up and down. This past week has been a terrible week. I lost yet another job on Monday after only eight hours and I think they were going to try and stiff me on my pay. Then I was dx'd with pneumonia...
- My new "job" lasted a DAY. yeah. A DAY. the woman I worked with all day on Monday called me an hour after I left and told me they didn't want me to come back. That they had decided to go down a "different path" and that she would send me a check...
- I stayed home and slept all day. I am going to bed early. I just feel emotionally and physically dead. I am not going to do anything to hurt myself, but I feel like the world would be better without me.
- I worked 8 hours at my new job and an hour after I left, the lady called me to tell me they "decided to take a different path" and they would pay. Me for today. So basically, screw me. I worked SO hard today. I was feeling very ill, and it turns...
- I start my new job tomorrow and I am EXTREMELY anxious. Afraid of the unknown, afraid they won't like me, that I won't do a good enough job. On and on. I feel very scared. I am still in pain, too. I took a muscle relaxer for the pain.
- I continue to be in extreme pain. My lower back hurts so bad that I can barely stand and/or walk. I almost passed out in the dollar store. I would go to the ER, but they would give me a temporary fix. I only have a few pain pills left. I am also...
- I am in severe pain. like everywhere. I took a bath, Norco and am sitting here with my leg propped up on pillows. I have been in a lot of pain for DAYS now and my dr won't RX pain meds. Luckily I have some leftover Norco. I wish I could go to the...
- I hurt. I have anxiety. And now, on top of that, I am experiencing HORRIBLEagitation. I swear, if my boss calls me stupid again tonight, i am going to walk out. Also, my mother has already called me four times today and it is only 2:15. She cries...
- I went to the doctor today. He wouldn't help me. He isn't my regular dr. I asked for Norco and he wouldn't rx it. I understand why he wouldn't, but it doesn't help my pain. He said that I should try and be more active, that it would help. And yes,...
- I was able to put my mother at bay on Christmas, but she is very intrusive pretty much every other. She calls me at least four times a day, sometimes one to two hours apart. Tonight she called and then an hour and a half later, calls me again. She...
- I have been in a lot of pain since yesterday. The only thing that helps is Norco. Unfortunately, the only thing that works is Norco. I have very few left that I save for times when I am in this kind of pain. My doctor won't refill my rx.