Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
around this time of year is the anniversary of my second rape.....i blame myself for it and i believe that i need to be punished.....and the way that i can do that is to self injure......now i know that i shouldn't self injure or blame myself, but i feel like i need to.....the other reason i want to self injure is because i feel like i owe it to myself....i'll try to explain as best as i can.......in my mind i was never able to stop him even though i should have, i should have fought or something.....and because now i live in fear and pain because i couldn't stop it, i owe it to myself to punish myself.....like, in order for me to take care of myself i need to love myself right?? and take care of myself right??? so why not take care of myself by punishing myself??? i mean, put the blame where it deserves to be, on me....and then punish the person who did something wrong me......does anyone else ever feel liek this???? i'm sorry if it didn't make any sense...
i feel that way a lot of the time, that is exactly why i started cutting in the first place. and also becasue it felt better to inflict my own pain on myself and have conrtol over it. rather that feel the pain i felt from being raped and not having control over it. i know exactly how you feel. Your deff not alone. im sure lots of other feel that way also.