Thor2008
Status: Undergoing Electro-Convulsive Shock Therapy
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- I saw my TDoc twice this week - Friday and Saturday. I don't know if she works on Sat, but I saw her then. At the end of the session, she said, I need to see you again tomorrow. She wanted to go over what I reveled. I told her about an event that...
- I am reposting this as I do not think that I posted it correctly. This site is a little counter intuitive.Today, I spoke with the TDoc about my greatest shame and guilt. I finally broke down and told her near the end of the session. I never wanted...
- My PTSD is tied in some very bad surgical experiences I had with the military. And anytime I think about the surgeries or the smell of blood it triggers the memories, and sounds of what happened. Any suggestions on this? I will have to wait...
- Not sure where to post this, Bipolar or PTSD. It is both. I am still so screwed up, I don't know which end is up at this point. On the PTSD side, we started to talk about some medical issues and I relayed my first surgical expercience and how...
- Just got back from getting my new license plate, driver's license, and registration! Gave up my former state driver's license that I have had for 33 years. That state's license never expires if you are military. Also got this new license plate
- I was at my TDoc, who I think she is about 325 years old, but she said that I have Bipolar I due to the number of cycles a year that I have. I have never heard of this distinction before. My understanding was the level of mania that drives the...
- I am up early as I am too anxious to sleep going out fo a long walk.
- So I left work early today. I needed some time off and I pulled chocks early. When I got home, I put on a pair of my "crazy pants" and lounged like a tree-less sloth. When I went into the hospital last time, I had a few days to ready myself...
- Hi, I am have military PTSD sufferer along with bipolar. The later I have been a member of for a while. My idea and that from my PDoc and TDoc was to work on stabilizing my depression and suicide attempts (yeah for lengthy hospitalizations)....
- Saw the PDoc today. My third time with him. First was an intro, the second was to deal with immediate mania, and now I get the new drug change up. I am leaving my cocktail for something new. How do I know this will work? He says it will......
- I have been under such a cloud for the past two years. It seemed that little broke my way and life was beating me at every turn. But, I got some good news tonight. As you know, I am veteran and retired from 28 years on 1 Feb. I have put two...
- Shame. I always feel a great deal of shame and guilt from this disease. You can be tried, convicted, and punished without accepting the underlying sin. But shame, that is altogether different, you must accept that sin. I read that others...
- You know how much I enjoyed running and how much joy that brought. Here is a picture from my past. Thor, my 95 lbs therapist is seen here waiting for his Einstein Bagel with smear after running about 15 miles. He never was a patient at waiting.
- Ran today for the first time in about a year. I ran with a group as I wanted them to pull me along. They ran at their speed and left me. I had a challenging time to run four. I was embarrassed for not being able to keep up and had to run...
- Interesting summary of a medical journal study on the use of magnetic resonance to help reverse the aging process of the brain. The team could only use this on certain parts of the brain near the skull. I wonder if this could be used for...