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I dont know whats happening. Im having a pychotic break. In my mind this whole day has been chatter. The voices chatter at me and i chatter back at them. Usually they try to use my love for god to...

Ive been sleeping alot lately. I must have gone over the eight hours a night by like two days. One day i slept for 24 hours straight. Now my brain feels like it is ultrasensitive. Everything is...

When things get bad. Hold on. Hold on tight and as much as you can. Then the bullshit gets better, the good starts coming back.

I think i can get myself into a mood state of mind for all things. done be too good or too wise, why destroy yourself, dont be to wicked either , don't be a fool, but try to walk a middle course. we...

Im just writing this to get it out..Right now i feel like my blood pressure is going through the roof. Like im going to faint or something. Im sitting here and i cant make myself be okay. Im shaking...

What the hell am i doing. with no regard to who reads what i write. Please don't get offend. Just talking to myself, because i need to get it out. What is going on. I was so secure. Now not so sure....

Got to keep looking up. One of the secrets of my life has been  to stick around till you get used to it.

I am so tired, heart broken, and weary.I made up my mind again tonight that at the core of who i am there is an attitude of love and service ttoward people. I'bve been hurt so much by so many...

IT DONT MEAN "NOTHING" DRIVE ON.

Why is life so hard. I have to believe it is because the tenderness of heavens mercies will contrast so greatly to our lives  difficulties that it will derive a great reward for our steadiness in...

I am writing what is in my head so i can know what i am thinking. I definetely know now that i have to respect my disability. I have control of my stress levels and the stress endurance in my brain...

I am counting my blessing. This new med, risperidone, is a god send. It acts on the serotonin and increases it. Just what i needed. So, before i take a long ride into self-pity and hell i selah.

I can't believe what i've been through.I talked to a thearapist today.Just another day for me and i told her all the stuff i'm dealing with these days,and i told her i was in severe pyhcological pain...

I feel great.I've been on zyprexa ever since i was 18 and diagnosed with schizophrenia.Always lacked energy.Slept 12 hours per day.Could'nt hold a job.The zyprexa made the negative symptoms(lessening...

If anyone has ever thought of commiting suicide like i have i have found out that the people in your life who know people who have and who wanted to but did not commit suicide always say the people...