What am i thinking?

I am writing what is in my head so i can know what i am thinking. I definetely know now that i have to respect my disability. I have control of my stress levels and the stress endurance in my brain is very fragile. I was so screwed up last night, yesterday that i actually though i was going through opoid withdredwals even thhough i only take tramadol about 10 days or less out of the month. I really have to take it so easy on my brain especially with my stress levels. It is not good to work. Even though it is easy work the thought in my mind that it has to be done, and done at a certain level adds a very disabling effect to my brain and my body pays for it dearly, so hard. I conclude that any strain on my central nervous system triggers wild mental pains and insanity. It is not all that bad, at least i know how to destress which took a lot of experience to learn. It is like i have to let go of everthing and just go with the flow, and gently keep in my mind some stance.