Stuff that goes on in my head

I am so tired, heart broken, and weary.I made up my mind again tonight that at the core of who i am there is an attitude of love and service ttoward people. I'bve been hurt so much by so many people--stranger and friends. Unjust cruelty when i was down and begging for scraps on my last breath. It hurts. I am still determined to love man. I think because of all the hurt there is a rage in me that surfaces somtimes. It flares out of control when i get wronged.