nervous

Im just writing this to get it out..Right now i feel like my blood pressure is going through the roof. Like im going to faint or something. Im sitting here and i cant make myself be okay. Im shaking on the inside and out. I guess i need to keep things simple. I need to know my choice in life is to not change. No rules against this for me i can change or stay the same. I like the idea of not changing. It makes me feel human and gives me a place to make my stand.