SeanPain

No entry yesterday just because i didnt have any time at all so while i have a minute here we go.So yesterday started off on a good note i was busy all day so i didnt really think about the wrestling...

Hey WOW the today and yesterday have actually been pretty good days, I havent really felt down at all and last night i was forced to work over my shift by two hours and i didnt even really get all...

Well for a sunday today wasnt a bad day as sunday's are usually the worst day of the week for me but thats a work thing and this isn't work...,So yeah today wasn't to bad for the most part i got...

Ok so one more lousy hour to go and thats only if they dont drop something in my lap last minute like always and i just dont wanna go home,I wanna leave work but i dont wanna go home and i have...

Hey guys i wasnt here at work yesterday so ive gotta catch up with yesterdays events as well as how i am this morning.I was in a really good mood yesterday until my wife got home from work and kept...

Today started VERY VERY BAD as i rolled out of bed and sludged my way to the shoulder i went and played some music and i nearly missed work because of how bad i was breaking down in the shower, I...

Well since i have the option of a journal here on DS i figure why not use it.I have always had symptoms of depression but it was never bad and overwelming like it is now,My dream was always to be a...

Here i sit YET AGAIN questioning why in the hell god or whoever/whatever hates me out there must continue to throw garbage upon my life as if im the fucking dumpster.....Im begenning to hate life and...

So...yeah.....today when i get backfrom church with some clients this guy that is suspected to be messing around with my wife comes in for work on his day off for some reason, And on top of that they...

I am now just over two full weeks of training with no show of slowing down any time soon......I CANT WAIT the next three days i will be off of work and able to go bang it out in the gym as much as i...

Today marks one full week of training as i am back on arms today and i honestly cant wait to clock out and go straight to the gym. I havent felt this good about the gym and myself...

I am a warrior inside this shell of what i use to be but its just so hard finding that warrior all over again....i NEED to find him i NEED to find me i NEED to open my eyes again to what and who i...

So i went to my 2nd psyc doc appointment today and told him about my situation and he said since it has really affected my job and the security of my job he wanted to try me on HALDOL and see if that...

How many times does god have to kick me in the nuts before he is happy? If there is truly a god then he is very melevalent and hate filled to let these kinds of things happen. The ONLY THING IN MY...

Ok so ive decided that toward the end of the night here at work i dont care what lies outside the walls of the building for me at home. I WILL watch what i have to on youtube to get pumped up and hit...