SeanPain

I seriously wish we could just go back to the way the world use to be.......When someone fucked you over what happened? You stepped in the middle of town with that motherfucker and just handled the...

Everynight that i lie down in the bed i try and pray.......i TRY and pray......I ask God to take away all of this violence and hate in my heart for her and still it persists to get worse and the...

I have never been a great person no matter what ppl believe about me........I feel so badly for the way i talked to my grandmother while growing up.......I always made my brothers feel like shit, Did...

Here i sit YET AGAIN questioning why in the hell god or whoever/whatever hates me out there must continue to throw garbage upon my life as if im the fucking dumpster.....Im begenning to hate life and...

So...yeah.....today when i get backfrom church with some clients this guy that is suspected to be messing around with my wife comes in for work on his day off for some reason, And on top of that they...

I am now just over two full weeks of training with no show of slowing down any time soon......I CANT WAIT the next three days i will be off of work and able to go bang it out in the gym as much as i...

Today marks one full week of training as i am back on arms today and i honestly cant wait to clock out and go straight to the gym. I havent felt this good about the gym and myself...

I am a warrior inside this shell of what i use to be but its just so hard finding that warrior all over again....i NEED to find him i NEED to find me i NEED to open my eyes again to what and who i...

So i went to my 2nd psyc doc appointment today and told him about my situation and he said since it has really affected my job and the security of my job he wanted to try me on HALDOL and see if that...

How many times does god have to kick me in the nuts before he is happy? If there is truly a god then he is very melevalent and hate filled to let these kinds of things happen. The ONLY THING IN MY...

Ok so ive decided that toward the end of the night here at work i dont care what lies outside the walls of the building for me at home. I WILL watch what i have to on youtube to get pumped up and hit...

Yesterday when i got home from work i went inside and chilled out on the game for a bit until my wifes show came on and i turned it off so that she could watch it, All of a sudden i felt like working...

Ever morning i wake up take a shower get dressed and go to work without even thinking about it i do it. Every morning after i do this i start to fall back down into my mood and its starting to...

Ok so i know that we cant entirely control our emotions after all were all human and therefore flawed....But why in the hell am i allowed to float through life these last few years out of control...

Im feeling better than what i have been lately but now today im starting to revert to the depressed pissed off sean that cant stand to be around anyone all over again. Atleast my psyc doc appointment...