hardycat

okay! I spent yesterday in bed watching suspense and horror movies and yes I ate about 1 million peanut butter cups. But so what. Watching these movies make me begin to wonder why don't characters in...

Someone should suggest a support group just for suicidal people. I know there are all kinds of support groups on daily strength. There is one specifically that says do not under any circumstances...

someone reached out to me today. I am no longer totally alone. The voice was a surprise. The nice voice will reach out other times too. Now I have a reason to hang on. It's a small reason but a...

okay! So I live in a very small town in Texas where there are no social services. My sister lives in Houston. But she has her own life. My brothers live across the fence but no one speaks. Both my...

not everyone has time to read a book a week, but I do.  Reading has became my escape. I paint or draw even though it looks nothing like I intended but at least it keeps my mind occupied.  These...

Robert Frost said," a man's reach should always exceed his grasp" don't we all wish for something better for ourselves.  Are we ever satisfied with our lives?  I hope not because we would not have...

To all of you who read this journal, are there moments when you are not worried about something?  What does that actually feel like.  Are you ever happy just because?  do you ever eat something...

I actually heard something strange yesterday.  It doesn't happen very often. it just came out.  No matter what I did I couldn't stop it.  I heard laughter.  No it wasn't someone else of laughter...

I don't think I can worry about my future anymore.  Isn't a future just another word for tomorrow? yesterday is gone!  Today will take care is to be lived and tomorrow will take care of itself.

after 18 years it's official, I don't particularly like my psychiatrist as a person. Last night we had our usual Monday night session.  He calmly informs me that I may be developing a severe case of...

my mind will not stay still.  I really can't think clearly.  I don't want to eat.  I hear the voices again!  I a.m. very frighten by this.  I pray I make it through today.  I will have to take...

although love can't always be noticed by the five senses, it can always live in our hearts.  Heart love is carried with us throughout our lifetime.

I worry constantly about something.this is where the serenity prayer comes to mind God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference.  My problem...

my grandmother used to have a saying, there is more then one way to skin a cat.  Okay due to a bad browser and my worsening arthritis, I am no longer able to instant message anyone.  But I have...

I only exist!  I eat I sleep and I wonder around in a daze.  There is no living to be done.  There is only survival.  I have so much love to give but no one to give it to.  I have a family but...