lucky

okay! So I live in a very small town in Texas where there are no social services. My sister lives in Houston. But she has her own life. My brothers live across the fence but no one speaks. Both my parents are ill. No no matter, I try to fill my time with books and art, I am still extremely lonely! I can't move because I own my own house and land. I am on a fixed income. There is very little money for movies some months I am eating top Ramen. Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am and I believe that. But still my life isn't what I expected. To anyone who reads this I am just venting. I don't expect pity I just needed someone to know about my life.