hardycat

I only have one candle to light my way through life. But because we are going the same direction, I would be glad to share it with you. Life is a journey but aren't we all trying to get the same...

I am home again. No more living out of a suitcase. My cat doesn't know me. I think God for our bed. There's nothing like your own bed. I was camping out on my sisters living room floor. I no longer...

I can no longer journal about my mother's Alzheimer's. I am afraid. She has became violent and paranoid not necessarily towards me, but my father. My father has become a complete stranger. I can say...

I can no longer journal about my mother's Alzheimer's. I am afraid. She has became violent and paranoid not necessarily towards me, but my father. My father has become a complete stranger. I can say...

I seriously want to die today! My mom keeps repeating the same damned question. " Where is my father". Meaning her father. I calmly repeat he died 40 years ago. The grief and tears I see and hear are...

I don't know why, when I got medicine for my pain that I thought all my other problems would disappear. it's been one of those days where all I can eat is saltine crackers. I lost my new therapist...

My psychiatrist has finally agreed with a pain specialist that part of my screwed up behavior has a lot to do with my pain. I am on a drug called tramadol. I can now walk across a room on my...

My psychiatrist has finally agreed with a pain specialist that part of my screwed up behavior has a lot to do with my pain. I am on a drug called tramadol. I can now walk across a room on my...

I have been crying all day. No I'm not in any pain! I don't need to speak to my psychiatrist. But yet the tears won't stop flowing. I guess it just along time in coming. I usually do self harm or...

my parents have been married 62 years. I think I've seen my father cry twice in all that time. Both of these times it was because of a death of a loved one or severe illness in the family. But today...

I have decided to separate from my family problems as much as possible. I can no longer be responsible for other people's happiness. I cannot intervene in my brothers possible suicide. I have given...

I have decided to separate from my family problems as much as possible. I can no longer be responsible for other people's happiness. I cannot intervene in my brothers possible suicide. I have given...

I spoke to my psychiatrist this morning. He said as long as I was eating something, I would be fine. My eating disorders come and go with stress. He has placed me on meal replacement supplement for...

I am very anxious! I cannot eat. Every time I think about eating, all I could think about is the calorie count. Although I given opportunities to eat, I just can't. Being eating disordered does not...

birthdays come and go in my family. There is no great celebration. Hugs aren't given. There are no candles. There is no special e-mails. I have lived 51 glorious hard years I take comfort in that. I...