Larissa238

I had a psychotic break last night, but before it got too bad I took some klonopin and knocked out. I'm feeling better today.

We will see how far down the rabbithole I go tonight. I promise to take care of myself, and if I'm a danger to myself I will check myself in. I made that promise to myself many years ago, and I'm not...

Not good... I'm getting hypomanic. I was severely depressed yesterday ( I didn't feel I was worth a 77 cent can of tuna since I was just going to eat it and it was going to be gone... I literally had...

I just made this nice journal entry and it's gone. Lost in the internet. I wanted some help, and it just went *poof*. If this happens again, I can't see me continuing with this site. Then it goes...

Walked for 20 minutes.

Hi. I kinda don't know how to start this. My name is Rissa, I'm going to be 28 next month, and I'm a survivor of physical, mental, and emotional abuse. My father killed himself when I was 13, but it...

Today was a busy day.... Geo and I went out to eat for lunch and then went to the grocery store. His dad gave him the car for the night, so we had some way to get around. It was nice having the...

I talked with my bosses today and they said it wasn't a good idea for me to try and take a vacation during the first couple months of my employment there, so I'm going to go home in January and look...

I saw my psychiatrist today and he said it's not good for my blood level of Depakote to be so high, so he's taking me down a bit. I'm worried the mood swings are going to resume, but that's something...

My mood is getting into elevator mode.. the other day I was going up and hypomanic and today it's going down. I was supposed to do my 5k today, but when I got up and got ready, I knew there was no...

Overall, my mood for October turned out pretty good. It wasn't as good as the month of August was, but overall it was good. I had many days where I was feeling average or above, and that's great. I'm...

Today is Geo's birthday as well. We had a good day.. I went to work and he slept for the most part. I went in early, since I woke up and it looked like it was going to be raining soon, so I hurried...

Today we went over to Geo's dad's house for his birthday (his birthday is tomorrow, but his dad works so we celebrated it today). It was nice. We actually got home in time for me to do my nightly...

Today I didn't do much.. just did laundry for the most part. I also cooked dinner, but I do that almost every night so I don't really count it in things that I do- unless I'm in a severe depression,...

I'm feeling a bit better today. I had to work hard at work, but I got the jobs they wanted me to done. I left a bit early, but I came in a lot early, so it makes up for it. I got a call about 9:30am...