nanouzz

well,,,,i been writing to some one on msn for a few das and we decided to talk on the phone it was nice to laugh again ,,,and to hear compliment ....(he said i was cute wooooo hoooo one point for...

he toook the boys was suppose to be for 4 hours and so he took them trough the drive tru at mcdonals and braught them home to eat it ,,,what a freeking idiot looser ,,,arghhh hes really pissing me...

well he promised jaacey that he would pick him up this evning to tak him to the park ect jacey waited by the door for 3 hours untill i decided to go to his house so the door was opened i walked in...

well i woke up crying this morning ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i can't stop thinking of him i need to ask god to remove him from my thaaughts i hate him i hate him i fucking hate him for what he's done to me...

i feel really hurt still,,i can't beleive he is doing this ,,,,,,i feel like i have failed my family ,,,like i wasnt good enaught for him to love me ,,,,,i feel like using so bad ,,,,,,,,i cant keep...

hello every one                            well no cheque today aarghhhhhh i had to go to the food bank ,,,oh well put my pride aside now my angels have plenty of food so im...

WELL I WENT TO A   N.A. MEETING TONIGHT IT WAS GREAT ,,,,THEY ARE ALMOST ALL GREAT ,,,,,I WAS HAPPY TO CHAIR IT ......I HAD TO GET SOME STUFF OUT ABOUT LAST THURSDAY NIGHT MEETING HOW TERRIBLE IT...

today was one of the worst day of my life ........i found out this girl down the street a friend of mine was raped a few days ago,,,,,,,,and i know who did it too and i just wat to kill him,,,,shes...

well i went to my first meeing in about 6 days whew!! i needed it so badly ....when  i miss meetings liek this i can feel myself slipping into the addict ways,,,,,,,im on these anti depressant now...

its  almost bed time now and  im full of energy just got done cleaning the house  took a nice bath ,,,*sigh* wish i had some one to cuddle with to watch a movie some one to compliment me not...

well its about 7 15 pm and my shy ann let me sleep in till 2 pm what a angel shes so great i dont know what i would do without her ,,,,my son cody is gone to ma mother ,,,,mom and i are starting to...

hate myself for feeling this way  ,,,i just hope tomorow will be better  Thank you for the ppl that wrote me its 1 am right now and im feeling a bit better ......i know what i need to do when i...

I WANT TO USE ,,,,,,i want to use to nume the pain,,,,,to take a break of life itself but i wont  ,,,,,i can't allow myself to use again i have done so much work to be wherte iam at now and my 4...

what a great day ,,,,went to a meeting and i seen him there ,,,,,i really want to talk to him but i dont think its a good idea ,,,,,so my girl comes back tomorow i missed her so much ,,,,,,so i hope...

well today is my 1 year party clean and sober wooo hooooooooo!!!! im a lil nervous im taking 3 of my kids that should be interesting lol im missing my girl shes gone camping  she ll be back...