i feel really hurt still,,i can't beleive he is doing this ,,,,,,i feel like i have failed my family ,,,like i wasnt good enaught for him to love me ,,,,,i feel like using so bad ,,,,,,,,i cant keep him out of my ind ,,,,,,,i want to hurt him so bad like i am hurting now ......i am mad,,,sad,,devasted,,,depress,,,,angry.....i can't deal with my kids and this at the same timwhat can i do? some one give me something to stop this pain please