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well still no meeting for me **kicking myself in the arsse*** but a  old friend of mine **user of course **calledme tonihgt and asked about the meetings and told me *i ll see you there nance!***...

fuck fuck fuck ,,i just wrote a long page and deleted it by accident ,,shit here we go again ,,,,,,,,,wish i wasnt a addict so i could pound a few down right about now ,,,or better yet just one big...

well  its been a while since i have done a meeting ,,,,,i just been trying to get over the l;ost of my sister and the betrayl of some one in n.a ,,,,,,,,i dont even want to go any more but i know i...

so i went to  meeting last night it felt so share about the lost of my sister  and i was feel ok there for a lil bit so we all went out side after the meeting to have a smoke and to  decide on...

well i had a geat halloween with the kids they were so cute,,,,,it's been good for the last few days,,,made some new friends on DS and  like that ,,,,,,i like to get to know some one and there life...

95613441975.............ok so had a good day so far going out with the ks after supper cant wait now lol write later

well went to a halloween party  a N.A. event and it was great!! we had lots of fun it was nice to go out and dance a lil again,,,,sober that was the bigest bonus,,,i had my french maid  alfit on...

well today was a good day got to sleep in my oldest kids took care of the babies ,,,,,,they are so great,,,,,,,,,,beside that well i invited ppl over for the UFC and no one showed up arghhhhhhhhhhhh...

i just want to scream,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i hate it when you care for some one and they just can't see it or believe you arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i give up!!!FUCK IT !!

x well went to play poker over at a N A friend ,,,just for fun tho no money involve lol it was great time ,,,,,,there was about 10 of us ,,,we had a great time ,,,it was amazibng it felt so good to...

well i relapse ,,,on a glass of wine....after one year being clean this is what i relapse on,,,what a joke,,,but oh well,,,,im back on track nowand i know my relapse mode was on long before i had a...

wow my life is K -OS right now got ther x hubby staying in my basement got the x boyfriend coming over everyday trying to get me back and got the new boyfriend staying away because of the...

it's so hard to know when you are having good feelings that nothing will go wrong.........its like everything is going too well im waiting for something to sabotage it ,,,,,,,,,,i been neglecting my...

well  for some of you that know i have been seing this man Tim ,,,,,,,,gawd i figured out what was wrong with him,,,,,he;s a nice guy,,,,lol im not use to this i tell ya,,,,,,,,,he give me roses on...

well it's been a while since i have wrote on here .......it's taking every once of my self not to go out and kill him ,,,,,,i have to see him everyday he comes here to see the boys he wont take them...