I WANT TO USE ,,,,,,i want to use to nume the pain,,,,,to take a break of life itself but i wont  ,,,,,i can't allow myself to use again i have done so much work to be wherte iam at now and my 4 kids are so happy now ,,,,shy ann is back from camping she doesnt seem to even had missed me she didnt want to spend time with me last night i need to have a one on one with her ,,,,,,she is talking about how fat she is and how she dont want to eat i thik i have to adress this issue...anyways ONE DAY AT THE TIME i will be ok hugzz wish every one a other 24 hour love you guys i dont seem to have ppl care for me on here i wish to find  a friend im so lonely